The day I made this song I had gone to the DMV to finally get my California license after living here over a year, only to find out my license was suspended because of a misdemeanor I had gotten in Utah for getting pulled over with weed in my car. The situation happened all the way back in 2017 when I was driving from LA back to Denver where I lived at the time, but I had forgotten to finish paying off my fine. Even though I was able to pay the difference and resolve the issue fairly quick, this was a breaking point after a whole list of things had been going wrong for me including more trouble with my mom’s mental health. I used the first verse of the track, which was originally called “Stressing,” to address the license situation, while using the chorus and 2nd verse to touch as deeply as I ever have on my mom’s manic depression. I really wanted this to be a record you could feel, where my emotions would cut through in my voice, which I think I captured well. It’s hard for me to hear the “have you ever seen your mama and not recognized who is it?” part without tearing up. After I was done writing I decided to rename the song Manic Depression and make that the main focus, plus it’s a bit of an homage to Jimi Hendrix.
lyrics
Manic Depression
[Chorus]
Stressing, stressing, stressing, stressing
Just like Usher said, I got a new confession
Stressing, stressing, stressing, stressing
Triple misdemeanor, I ain’t learn my lesson
Stressing, stressing, stressing, stressing
Just like Usher said, I got a new confession
Stressing, stressing, stressing, stressing
Mama off the meds, she got manic depression
[Verse 1]
I didn’t pay my fine, license got suspended
Had to pray to God I don’t do no sentence
Police searched the car, we ain’t have much in it
‘Cept a open bottle and some marijuana, God dammit
Plus a grinder with some pot in it
At 1am in Utah, and I am not kidding
Road-side test, I really had to do it
I would tell you how I passed but I don’t wanna get into it
I find it hard to really “talk about it” (yuh)
That’s why I bottle up a lot of shit
My shorty told me that I don’t cry enough
Aw shit, is it really that obvious?
I got my mind on a lotta shit
Like how to make my next dime, pull them dollars in
Plus all these problems with my mom and them
I think about it all the time and you know it got me
[Chorus]
Stressing, stressing, stressing, stressing
Just like Usher said, I got a new confession
Stressing, stressing, stressing, stressing
Triple misdemeanor, I ain’t learn my lesson
Stressing, stressing, stressing, stressing
Just like Usher said, I got a new confession
Stressing, stressing, stressing, stressing
Mama off the meds, she got manic depression
[Verse 2]
Sometimes it’s a curse, sometimes it’s a blessing
Sometimes it get worse before it get better
Tell me I’m the worst, curse and hang the phone up
Next day she call me back and say she feeling better
Opened up her purse when I needed cheddar
I’m gon reimburse her if it take forever
‘Cause she done had my back more than anyone ever
I could still remember way back ‘fore the cancer set in
Can’t front, you was someone different
I’ve accepted it but it’s some days where I still miss it
Try my best to let it go, I can’t just be indifferent
Have you ever seen your mama and not recognize who is it?
Sometimes this trauma is too much to mention
That’s why I be talking ‘bout the commas, shifting my attention
Lay in my cama staring at the ceiling
That’s where all this drama weighing on me and it got me stressing
[Chorus]
Stressing, stressing, stressing, stressing
Just like Usher said, I got a new confession
Stressing, stressing, stressing, stressing
Triple misdemeanor, I ain’t learn my lesson
Stressing, stressing, stressing, stressing
Just like Usher said, I got a new confession
Stressing, stressing, stressing, stressing
Mama off the meds, she got manic depression
credits
from Blue Planet,
released October 29, 2022
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